| wow i cant believe Devan is 8 months now. only a few more months til he is 1 years old. Im gonna make a big party for him since he didn't get his month old celebration. um lets see wat milestones i can put down for memory. - Devan is officially a crawler now. he's been crawling for a few weeks now. before that though he was a pro a spinning around 360. heeh and he also pulled and pushed himself all over the place like he was swimmin in the carpet. hey, it worked though, got him places fast. it was funny when he was first learning to crawl and then sit up by himself. He would get on all four and then just move his hands and feet into position but he would only rock back and forth like he was bout to move. he didnt move an inch though. After a dew days of that he started to crawl. - he clapped his hands for the first time 3 days ago. HE was trying to crawl into the kitchen and i was clappin my hands and sayin 'LAI DAY" (come here) and then he just stopped crawling sat up and then started smiling and clappin his hands. heheh it was soo cute. after doing it for a few times i couldnt get him to do it again. i guess its a one time thing, if u miss it, u miss it. -also got his two teeth last month. ------been at mom house for 4 months now. been ok. i havent been thinkin of him much. although in the back of my mind i think of him all the time. funni rite. wat a contradiction, but its true. i cant help myself. i would love to hate him, which he makes me feel whenever im with him, but whenver im away from him its different. its weird how love works huh. i just feel like a fool, lingering over something that will never work out in the future. It only takes time though, i noe i can get over him. it took like a year to forget my bf in 8th grade and i didnt have a baby with him soo i think it would take some time to forget this fucker. my life has been better though ever since i left him. my mind is clearer and i dont have head aches from his immaturaty, stubborness, laziness, and arguements. i never argued with someone so much. i dont think there was a day that went by without an arguement. everytime i ask him to do something he would always be lazy and dont want to do it. or he would say he'll wash the bottles but not until I dont have nemore left. and then if he waits for a long time he gets sleepy n dont do it at all, then me- who is the only one who watches the baby, have to get my ass up and wash the bottle and make the milk and then watch the baby some more. i never seen a more incapable person. He has the nerve to tell me to let him keep the baby when i was leaving him. yeah rite so u can kill him/? no way, u cantt even take care of urself. ne ways, sine the last blog i m still here. he was put in jail recently and he called me n said that when he gets out, he's not gonna hang oooout with ne one cept me, he's gonna work so we can get an apartment, and all these promises, but the next day he gets out, takes his mom car again and after goin whereever he needed to go he comes to my house to ask for some gas money. after that i was disgusted and told him to just leave i dont wanna c him again. i really hated him after that point. i guess that was the point of no return, now he is just the same o' bum, at home watch vietnamese movies all day, eating to his heart's desire n goin to sleep at nite, then repeating it all over again the next day. he hasnt even bother to call me, 3 days now since the last time i called and HEEE said he hated me n didnt want to talk to me again. wow ok. im glad he said that. i hope he never talks to me again. better for me to forget him. |
